Let’s start over

Sooo.. Hello there again, I know last time I said I would do my best and post weekly but I didn’t. I hate it but I didn’t. It was 3 months ago, 3 months of thinking about it every day but never having the actual strength to do it.

Also in the meantime, I had my second child. She came earlier than expected, same as my firstborn.. so you can imagine the joy and tiredness all over my body and mind. That is one of the reasons I didn’t even logged in here. (we hate excuses, but let me still use it so i feel a bit better about my lazyself 😅)

Having a preemie is hard! Trust me it is. Now, having a preemie and a toddler is even harder!! Giving the toddler the attention as before, keeping up with the household, cooking and part-time job while breastfeeding every 2 hours and basically holding the baby 24/7 is just a killer excercise for sure.

I don’t even know how other mommas do it with 2-3-4-5, and more children. It is amazing how some women have the energy and devotion for this lifestyle. I feel like going back to work is only hard because you don’t want to be away from your baby, but staying home all day is a lot harder. Yes, of course people say “You are home all day, you can lay down/sleep anytime” but that is not true. Not even with only 1. When baby sleeps, moms do everything else, so their home doesn’t feel like a warzone. Not only because they want to (sometimes we don’t) but because if it is not done we feel guilty and it puts even more stress on us.

If you ask yourself how i got back to write this blog thing now, well my baby just turned 2 months old and had her first vaccine, so as I am staying up with her, making sure she doesn’t have a fever and everything is all right, I didn’t want to feel guilty anymore, and couldn’t find any good movie on Netflix..so I decided to use this time and do something other than just scrolling or playing games on my phone.

(I don’t know you but I enjoy playing dumb games on my phone sometimes to wind down before sleep, and i found an app where i can get a few dollars for doing som they pay per tasks completed within downloaded games, it could be reaching /completing levels or getting certain scores.. in case you wanted to try out, I leave here my ref link: freecash.com/r/01239ab436 (here is a proof of my dashboard and games: )

Well, this would be all for now, hopefully i will post again soon, and laziness doesn’t take over me.

See you next time, xoxo